16 ene 2003
The following was supposed to be posted about 1:45 am; Blogger, however, did not comply.
While I cannot say I have left no regrets, I can say they are not the infinite mass I alluded to earlier. I am happy with my life so far; either I'm getting complacent, old, or accepting (I damn well hope it's accepting). I may be leaving duality behind; boy that would be great.
I was talking about money/education earlier today with Bekah & Nik today, and I have come to two conclusions:
1) my friends are awesome.
2) my parents suck at money management.
Because:
In all reality, I should have college paid for, no problem. But my stupid parents got divorced in 1992 and took a full decade to finally settle child custody (and my mother is about to start it all again about Rachel... but what else is new?) I.e., they have lawyer bills like no tomorrow; and then my father got divorced again last year, there goes the money again! So we’re poor though my dad gets paid buckets now.
I hypothetically should be two years ahead of what I am in school, because I should have started kindergarten in 1988 not 1989 (but my mom would have been lonely w/o me). I was supposed to skip third grade but my mother moved my sister & I to Milwaukee, and didn't put me in school that year so my father couldn't find us. By the time we came back (were forced back) to EC, the school year was mostly over and they concluded I actually did skip third grade, so 'see ya in the fall for fourth grade!' Yippee. I was incredibly angry for the rest of elementary school.
I told Bekah & Nik about this, and they were all, 'actually, we're glad you ended up in our grade' (Nik: I would have been bored without you. Bekah: I wouldn't be the person I am without you.) Wow, they really made me feel appreciated. Now, I'm sure if I had been in the class of 2000 or 2001 rather than 2002, I would have had some really great friends there. But they really are great. Also, I have a lot of younger friends I simply wouldn't have known had I been in an earlier class. Barbie, Mary, Sarah and Tony come to mind. Life without them.... jeez.
So there are regrets, and then there are regrets. Mistakes are made, but it has worked out. I’m just happy there are people out there who are glad to know me.
¶ 09:55
While I cannot say I have left no regrets, I can say they are not the infinite mass I alluded to earlier. I am happy with my life so far; either I'm getting complacent, old, or accepting (I damn well hope it's accepting). I may be leaving duality behind; boy that would be great.
I was talking about money/education earlier today with Bekah & Nik today, and I have come to two conclusions:
1) my friends are awesome.
2) my parents suck at money management.
Because:
In all reality, I should have college paid for, no problem. But my stupid parents got divorced in 1992 and took a full decade to finally settle child custody (and my mother is about to start it all again about Rachel... but what else is new?) I.e., they have lawyer bills like no tomorrow; and then my father got divorced again last year, there goes the money again! So we’re poor though my dad gets paid buckets now.
I hypothetically should be two years ahead of what I am in school, because I should have started kindergarten in 1988 not 1989 (but my mom would have been lonely w/o me). I was supposed to skip third grade but my mother moved my sister & I to Milwaukee, and didn't put me in school that year so my father couldn't find us. By the time we came back (were forced back) to EC, the school year was mostly over and they concluded I actually did skip third grade, so 'see ya in the fall for fourth grade!' Yippee. I was incredibly angry for the rest of elementary school.
I told Bekah & Nik about this, and they were all, 'actually, we're glad you ended up in our grade' (Nik: I would have been bored without you. Bekah: I wouldn't be the person I am without you.) Wow, they really made me feel appreciated. Now, I'm sure if I had been in the class of 2000 or 2001 rather than 2002, I would have had some really great friends there. But they really are great. Also, I have a lot of younger friends I simply wouldn't have known had I been in an earlier class. Barbie, Mary, Sarah and Tony come to mind. Life without them.... jeez.
So there are regrets, and then there are regrets. Mistakes are made, but it has worked out. I’m just happy there are people out there who are glad to know me.
¶ 09:55
